Dum De Doo Dum De

Did you know...
I laid in my car for an hour today. In my garage, with my ipod on, and my seat reclined back, nice and comfy.

I write in my journal everyday. Not about my day, just about life and whatever comes to mind.

my car died this weekend. And Madeline had to jump me in the rain. Jump my car I should say...:)

I light candles and stare at the ceiling.

that I have an addiction to caffeine, and that Capri Sun is my druggg.

that I make lists and lists of countless things.

I live on burned cd's, and if you made me one I might just kiss you.

that I don't believe in miracles. But I do believe in fate.

that I burn my stresses. Literally. Write them on little pieces of paper, and light them with a match, and watch them float slowly into the wind. Because what will these stresses be in 10 years?

that I have a whole essay due tomorrow, but I can't seem to find my words.

I'm listening to the song Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk, and it's simply beautiful.

I love beds, cozy ones only. That have lots of pillows and piles of blankets.

that I want to know you, yes you!

Afterwards

and she flew, she flew
guided by the rope of light
secured at her waist,
held between transparent fingers
she looked over her shoulder
lifted her hand in a slight goodbye
the rope tugged gently,
all thoughts of home
fled her mind
and she flew, she flew

The weather reflects my mood.
The sky is hiding, this isn't our sky. It can't be.
This somber attitude always seeks me out,
it always finds me.
It will be gone by tonight, I guarantee it.
So what is this phase?
The phase that makes me lay in the dark
and really think.
About the people I've lost,
the people that I'm losing.
The things I'm missing,
the opportunites that I can't afford.
I think of my 2 dimensional life.
But that becomes 3 d when I'm happy.
How can I be all these things, all these contradictions?
I'm lost in the places I want to be,
the person I wish I was.
Sadness never seems to let me go.