Birthdayyyy!

Garrison darling,
you've been demanding a blog for weeks! So here it is! Happy 18th, I hope it is wonderful :)
Love you!

Liana

Back to Basics

Sitting in the family on a Tuesday night is uneventful. And boring! So I'm going to be creative, and make another post. It's been too long!
I decided I'm going to just stay to the basics...so here we go!
I'm definitely stressed about finals, as I'm sure all high schoolers around the area are. Well all high schoolers around the world I'm sure. And I can't help but think, will my grades from my Junior year, first semester, really matter in the long run? Will anything less than a 4.0 get me into a college that my parents will approve of? And it's these measly little tests that come around twice a year that make me shake and pull my hair out! (Metaphorically of course). School seems to be never ending, I mean, we spend about 22 years of our lives going to school. And that just seems crazy! I'm just hoping it will all pay off in the end.
My little baby Bella has been adopted. What was supposed to be a 2 week homestay, turned out to be 6 weeks! Which called for a much bigger attachment, and I can't even imagine what it will be like without her. Luckily her adopter is someone who works with my dad, so I can hopefully get visiting rights!

My words of wisdom for the week are to keep your loved ones close. I'm sure I've said this before, but it doesn't feel good to be forgotten, so hold the ones you care about close!
Don't try to dwell on the present too much, the future will hold completely new experiences.

P.S. Lisy comes home from Africa tomorrow, yayyyy!
Love, Liana

Winter Break

I'm sitting here in my family room watching Jerseylicious and enjoying the company of my little puppy dog Bella! Or Lady Daga. She's a 7 month old, german shepard/great dane mix and is pretty much what I'd call a Marley dog. She's wild and crazy, but I'm becoming insanely attached :(. She's only a foster dog, so she goes back to the shelter to be adopted soon.
I'm just now starting my homework, and I still can't comprehend that we all have to go back to school tomorrow. It will definately be hard to transition from laying in bed, all day every day, to waking up early and having to go to school. This break has brought a lot of joy, and great memories, especially being with the family. Analisa is only home for 2 more days, and then she's off to Africa!
I hope everyone all had a beautiful Christmas, and also that we can find peace with school!
Once again, not a big update, but just wanted to get a little writing in!

The days have been flying by! And writing has just fled my mind.
Thanksgiving break was freakin AWESOME. 6 days off and Analisa was in town, and it was just wonderful!
I love my sister :)
Nothing new has been happening, school is laid back and so is home life.
I seriously can't think of anything to write, so I bid thee farewell.

Dum De Doo Dum De

Did you know...
I laid in my car for an hour today. In my garage, with my ipod on, and my seat reclined back, nice and comfy.

I write in my journal everyday. Not about my day, just about life and whatever comes to mind.

my car died this weekend. And Madeline had to jump me in the rain. Jump my car I should say...:)

I light candles and stare at the ceiling.

that I have an addiction to caffeine, and that Capri Sun is my druggg.

that I make lists and lists of countless things.

I live on burned cd's, and if you made me one I might just kiss you.

that I don't believe in miracles. But I do believe in fate.

that I burn my stresses. Literally. Write them on little pieces of paper, and light them with a match, and watch them float slowly into the wind. Because what will these stresses be in 10 years?

that I have a whole essay due tomorrow, but I can't seem to find my words.

I'm listening to the song Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk, and it's simply beautiful.

I love beds, cozy ones only. That have lots of pillows and piles of blankets.

that I want to know you, yes you!

Afterwards

and she flew, she flew
guided by the rope of light
secured at her waist,
held between transparent fingers
she looked over her shoulder
lifted her hand in a slight goodbye
the rope tugged gently,
all thoughts of home
fled her mind
and she flew, she flew

The weather reflects my mood.
The sky is hiding, this isn't our sky. It can't be.
This somber attitude always seeks me out,
it always finds me.
It will be gone by tonight, I guarantee it.
So what is this phase?
The phase that makes me lay in the dark
and really think.
About the people I've lost,
the people that I'm losing.
The things I'm missing,
the opportunites that I can't afford.
I think of my 2 dimensional life.
But that becomes 3 d when I'm happy.
How can I be all these things, all these contradictions?
I'm lost in the places I want to be,
the person I wish I was.
Sadness never seems to let me go.